Broken is Beautiful

Laying in bed this morning, contemplating whether or not I was going to get up. I started thinking about being "Broken". I cant think of anything more beautiful right now than how beautiful it is to be broken by God.
When I started my christian walk, I had no idea whatsoever what it meant to broken. Not at all. Along the way, I read lots of books & blogs , did lots of bible studies, heard some testimonies. I started to grasp the concept a little, I got the basic idea of it. I think I was scared of it at first. I didnt want to be broken. I thought, I dont really have time. You see, I have four kids and I cant really afford to miss an unscheduled day of work. It seems if I got broken I would be out a few days. Acually I cant even afford to be broken at home, I cant imagine my house doing well with be be broken more than an hour or so. Thinking maybe I could just be broken in a tougher way so I dont have to really miss a beat? I dont know. Broken just didnt sound like something I needed or really had time for much.
Then I got broken....over and over and over and over!
....and WOW!
Im not quite sure exactly what God breaks in us. I imagine that there are about a million glass layers around my heart. Each one a different color and each one representing a different thing. Each one being broken one by one. And not in any specific order either. He might break 10 layers of glass under that top super strong thick layer.....and when that one goes thats a BIG BREAK!
Before never wanting to be broken,,,,now praying i will never ever come close to running out of layers to be broken. Because when God breaks something in us,,,,he doesnt just leave it broken and empty. He replaces it with something righteous and good. I imagine him turning those ugly glass layers around my heart into .... into... i have no idea really ....just something really beautiful and soft.
One of my favorite things is to see another woman broken. You can see it in her humility, you can see her awe for God beaming through her eyes, and you can feel the joy in her heart. You can feel because you've been there. You know she is feeling Gods passionate zealous love for her. She looks sooo beautiful because you know how beautiful she feels.