Angry at God

I have heard a lot of people say testimonies about being angry at God at certain points in thier lives. I really couldn't understand that. I mean it never had happened to me, and I couldnt imagine a situation that I could possibly ever be angry or mad at God.
that is until a few days ago.........
..............Satan found my breaking point.
This might sound stupid, but my breaking point was not having A/C in my car.
For some strange reason, I have never had a summer with A/C. I mean never! I have had tons of different cars and none with A/C. Usually they had some mystery problem that just cant be fixed, like now.
So I said "why, God? Why cant I have ?>!?!!!;.! A/C! Why? I was really mad. I cried, for the first time in many many years. (actually, im glad i cried because i though that i was unable to cry )
So that open the door for me to be mad at God about something else........................ See, I'm never at rest in my life. My mind is constantly thinking what I can do to serve God. Its like I have no choice but to do more and more. This is a good thing I know, but satan was twisting it. I was asking God, why?
why cant I just relax like other christians I know, just going to church on sundays
why do have to give tythes no matter if I can "afford" it or not
why do i feel like im responsible to volunteer everywhere
why cant i just say "thats too bad", and walk away
leading to ......
why do i have to do all this in a car with no air
and a old house in pine hills
with every thing i own used
and working at stupid ihop 40 plus hours a week
never having weekends off
leading to .....
why cant i have a great house i can have parties in
or have guests stay at
and have nice kids for mine to play with
and a decent school for them to go to
or a mom that helps with my kids

Let me tell I am one that never complains. Most of my struggles I blame on my bad choices and the rest is "just life". But satan got all this out of me, just through the car a/c.

.....................But God did answer my Whys! He clearly told me that he wants me to joyfully serve him with what I have and where i am. and that means even in a car with four kids and no a/c and a window that wont roll down.

So I called satan at his game. Im not looking forward to a hot summer, but i know with all my heart that I am in a better situation that many ( like my sisters in Africa and other countries of this world). And I know Im better off than those who dont know jesus! And I am so so so thankful that God puts thats fire in me to serve and that he gives me a brain with creative ideas. I am sorry for the thoughts I allowed satan to put in my head, but am grateful I reconized them quickly!

My 1st ever "donate your tips" day at IHOP

Today me and my co-workers had a little fundraiser. We collected all of our tips together and are donating them. We are giving the money for Brandi to use when she goes to Uganda this month. My church has sponsored an orphanage, Raffa, in Uganda. The children at Raffa and throughout Uganda are in need of much. This trip I believe the focus is pencils, sharpeners, toothbrushes, toothpaste, underwear and of course food.

Everyone had a good time today raising the money, my co-workers, the customers and myself. Im glad it went well, I am planning to do this on a regular monthly or bi-monthly basis.

Today we raised a total of $317

Erik and Tatiana

Me, Richardson and Tatiana

Kid #4 might become #1 : ) !

Nicolas, right after dumping the dogs food for the fourth time today, walked right over a grabbed the broom and dust pan. So cute! He needs a little practice, but this could turn into a good thing!

~~~I love my kids~~~

I am so so grateful that my boys are growing up knowing and loving jesus! Today my 6 year old woke up and the first thing he said was "its friday, the day jesus died for our sins. only three more days until god brings him back to life". For me, this is just so good.
Being a Christian for only a few years now, Im daily faced with what used to be and what is now. Daily, sometimes hourly, the holy spirit is making changes in my life. My daughter, 17, she sees the changes, she does........but i raised her as an atheist. She will come to jesus, i know she will with all my heart. I just dont know how hard or long her journey will be.
But my boys, they just know jesus. They dont know the before and after, they just know the after. They dont know what used to be and what is now, they just know the now. They dont know the mom I used to be, they just know the mom i am now.
The most amazing to me is when i think, how did this happen? How did we make it? When I look back at the beginning of my journey to now........god did so much.
And now when I look at my kids, and see the holy spirit in them, I can really accept how much my life has changed. They make it real!

Face painting blog!

Since I have sooooooooooo.........much spare time (jk) , I decided to make another blog. Its going to be for my face paintings. I only just started it, but I'm going to post all my designs. Hopefully I meet other face painters. Also, I want to teach people if they are interested. Eventually I'll put up step by step pics and info on whats needed to start and stuff. SO EXCITED!

............or not!

My last post was titled "I shall blog". That looks pretty ridiculous now, considering that was over a montha ago. Well, one day I shall blog..............a lot.........when I have more time!