I was thinking about how, as a new christian, sins have been idenitfied and taken out of my life.

In the beginning, I saw this huge list in front of my face. HUGE! And I thought IMPOSSIBLE.

I started with the easiest things first. Turned out some of what I thought was the hardest, turned out to be the easiest. It was a heavy wieght on me. The list was so long and some things I felt like I just couldnt change. Many times I wanted to just say forget it, if I have to do all this just forget it. Its too much.

Then I realized that I couldn't change anything on my own. Only God can! - and he changes so easily. All I had do was just want it and ask him. After I realized this I went from changing about 2 sins a year (with pain and struggle) to 2 or more a month (with ease and fun).

Some things I had to learn the hard way. The very hard way! Like not having sex outside of marriage. I really didn't want to give that one to God! Its seemed unrealistic and impossible. When faced with that one I rebelled, I was on the line of giving up to sin. Actually, I crossed the line and almost gave up God. The consequences of that were huge, but not as huge as they could have been. Thank God, he dispilined me in just the right way to make me return to him with lesson learned.

Back to topic... origanally I thought I just had to get through this list of sins and I'll be done. Not true, at all. My origanal list is complete, but my list is still big, even bigger. It just keeps replenishing itself. I hope it never stops growing - if it does that means I will to.