I lost my best friend : (( !

Last night I took one of my best friends , Tatiana, and her husband, and baby Joshua in her belly, to the airport. They moved to Brazil .........permenantly. Im really, really, really gonna miss her. Really.

We've worked together for 6 years. She was a huge, huge impact on my journey to accept Christ. Everymorning , it was like we had our own bible study. I'm going to miss that terribly. We talked about everything and anything.

Worst of all, I'm going to miss Joshua being born : ( ! After we prayed for years for her to get pregnant.

We have internet and stuff, but it wont be the same.

Im really going to miss this girl!

They wont be able to return to the U.S. to visit any time in the near future. So, Im trying to think, I have to go visit her one day , but how? I've barely left Orlando in my life, and that was only to go to Daytona.

God has a plan....this I'm sure.

Its hard to explain, but this is such a new experience for me. In my past, I didnt have real relationships with people. I knew people and had friends, but it was different. I guess I didnt let people get too close. Even family. I've had plenty of people in my life move away, but in the past I was like whatever. Now, because God changed my heart I know, its different. I feel sad. This is hard for me to put in words for some reason.

I mean....I cried all night because I'm really going to miss this girl. And the fact that I cried all night is such an answer to personel prayer. A few years ago, actually a month ago, I wouldn't have cried. I couldnt cry. And a constent prayer for me has been for God to soften my heart.. and he did!

....and I really love my dear friend Tatiana, and I'm going to miss her soooooo..... much!